Hasn't been blogging, well im back. I just pass all my module..which means i can finally obtain my diploma cert. I should be happy..but i wasn't..i know i could have completed earlier..anyway..fuck it.

Has been doing all the " wrong " things for the past few weeks. Anyhow this is a very private posting. So please dun read it..its a confession of a teenage trouble queen.lol

I took a stick last week, which i shouldn't have..it taste like heaven. Last night, i took another 3 stick..yes i am fucking guilty, but it was shiok man. The temptation did not left me at all.Times n times i resisted.Anyhow..i shall try to keep control my urge.

Speaking of urge, my sexual urge was pretty high this few weeks..in fact all the while it was there..(i have HSD)..it din help for the places i go..where temptation was all time high..i let my animal instinct ovverule me. Althou there wasn't any real activity gg on..i felted guilty for some reason.the ironic part is that i have no one but myself to account for what i have done..perhaps it got to do with my faith..but then again..being a pretty liberal human being..i do understand that im just being a man..having a humanly urge but i feel bad.

Maybe i should be playing the devil adovcate..im just being alive..there's no right or wrong and i shouldn't be judging myself..Life is short..we should be happy and at the same time "enjoy" life..haha..it aint easy to be a man.Alright..i hugged a woman last night..my hands was all over her body..she kept pushin me away..she played with my hands..i shall stop elaborating.Full stop

A man is just like an animal, the only thing that separate a man from an animal..is value.
Find that man, it just wasn't me.

Something to cheer..i always pondered over my sexuality..my doubt was over : )